Motherhood

It’s Mother’s Day coming up, and the lovely people at Ollie and Leila asked me to share my experience of motherhood. We are all different and our kids are all different, so I think it is inevitable that we all experience motherhood differently.

WP_000183I always knew I wanted to be a mum, but only in a vague way really. I wanted to live a bit first and then assumed it would happen when it happened. Ah the arrogance of youth eh? I was one of the lucky ones, I know that now, as it did happen for me, and pretty easily. Far more easily than I thought it would actually. I came off the pill (that I had been on for over 10 yrs) and was pregnant by the next month.

We were a bit shocked but it was what we wanted and we were ready for it… Or as ready as you can be. I don’t really think anyone can truly be ready to be a parent and no matter how much you talk about it, or how many friends and relatives you have seen become parents, it is still such a shock to the system when it is your turn.

DSC_0552I haven’t always found motherhood easy. We’ve dealt with colic and lactose intolerance and silent reflux. We’ve had fussy eaters and late talkers. The constant wondering ‘am I doing the right thing?’ can be so hard and I’m finding that doesn’t really stop. Nearly 5 years on I still have no idea much of the time whether I am making the right decisions or doing the right thing. But, my kids are happy for the most part and healthy so I guess I must be doing ok.

It’s exhausting too, especially so since our Little Miss joined us and made us a family of four. Going from one child to two is not an easy step. In many ways you know what is ahead of you, and I guess some mums are more relaxed second time around… But there a whole host of other challenges. First time round you didn’t also have a toddler to deal with while you were cluster feeding a newborn or changing outfits thanks to a pooplosion.WP_20141030_09_21_13_Pro

With two children, I have found it so difficult to find a balance between the needs of both children. At different ages and stages they need different things from you… But they both still need you. There’s jealousy, squabbles and bickering. Sometimes it is easier to tell Monkey to give in to LM when she wants something, to keep the peace. But that isn’t fair on him and actually doesn’t give her the right message either. That doesn’t mean I haven’t told him to do it though, because sometimes you just want an easy life.

Then there’s trying to find time for yourself, to still be you, when you have the constant demands of children. To make time for your partner when you’re both so so tired by your day. Making time to see friends, to have a hobby, to take care of yourself. It’s all too easy to let one or more of those things slip.

Motherhood is hard, it’s all consuming and it’s exhausting.

But.

I wouldn’t change it for the world.

These little people who run me ragged, who drive me crazy and who push me to my limits. These little people are amazing, and I’m so lucky and so grateful to be their mama. It sounds twee and cliche but it’s the truth. My little boy tells me that I’m the best Mummy ever and I melt. My little madam snuggles in for a cuddle, or gives me her cheekiest look and I just adore her. I watch them playing with their daddy or just messing with each other and I’m the happiest I’ve ever been. It all happened so fast and my life has changed so much, but I couldn’t imagine life without this little pair, I really couldn’t.PhotoGrid_1489340144996

Motherhood is hard, but worth it.

Disclosure: I was gifted a beautiful necklace in exchange for writing this post however all thoughts, feelings and photos are my own.

14 thoughts on “Motherhood

  1. We had colic with our first and that on it’s own is tough let alone with silent reflux as well. I have found it harder going from 1 child to 2 than it was going from none to 1. I am more laid back but it is the juggling of their needs, we’re figuring things out but it s hard work. #ThatFridayLinky

  2. A beautiful post and looks like you are loving motherhood Thanks for linking to the #THAT FRIDAY LINKY come back next week please

  3. What a beautiful post and I think you’re right; going from zero children to one was really tough but going from one to two brings with it a whole new set of challenges and I think is tougher, still!
    I think we always have questions about how well we’re doing but it looks like you’re doing just fine(!) and enjoying motherhood. You have a gorgeous family
    xx
    #WoTW

  4. Thus is a lovely post, sums up motherhood perfectly. I can totally relate to the struggle of going from one child to 2, I was shocked at how difficult it has been. Xx #twinklyTuesday

  5. This is beautiful and I love how you’ve really summed up motherhood in your final line. It is hard, but it is worth it. I found going from one to two much harder than going from zero to one – trying to juggle the needs of a toddler and the needs of a baby was very challenging at times! I think there is always that element of wondering whether you are doing things right and I too am guilty of getting the older one to give in to the younger one sometimes because it is easier! Trying to find time for yourself is never easy but I’ve learned that I’m a much nicer and happier mummy when I have a little me-time too! #WotW

  6. This sums up motherhood so well! You’re so right, while they steal your time and run you ragged you would never be without them. They make life so much more exciting! ;)
    Thanks for linking to #pocolo

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